I think my party kicked ass! (Or I'd hope it to)

But shucks. 'long lost' people like some sec sch friends and table tennis seniors missed out on the guest book ): ):

I thought it was the most emotional I've been in front of ALL MY FRIENDS. DIE LA so malu.
I think I want to upload it to facebook for those who couldnt come.

for the people who really made a difference in my life.

Thank You.
I really do love you all.

Slept 3 hours last night. And none at all yet today
Prepping for the party later.

Last minute. But I really cant help it cause of bike.
but I hope it'll be fine.

Anw friends please handle the guest book later with ULTIMATE TENDER LOVING CARE. If it gets destroyed I will so chop the culprit into pieces. I just spent 5 hours doing it.

I'm a little optimisitc for my party later. Hopefully it will kick ass.
There remains the seating outline for later since I cannot customize the place.

And nitty gritty things here and there.

I shall take a nap.

Peimin is sleeping away on skype. I feel like scaring her awake. hoho. but okay I shall not since she's been awesome to be my planning buddy.
:):)

See all of you later!
Bring your cameras folks. There'll be lots to take!

I realise I blog in weekly-ness now.

I'm being REALLY REALLY nua this holidays. like FINALLY. rather reluctant to go for IHG. Nor trainings nor go out nor meet people in daylight.

I think I should make better use of this holidays though. But then again. 2 years of IHG trainings for so many sports, more games more ivp training more meetings. I just want to relac one corner.

Maybe this is what they call jaded.
I should though try being more enthusiastic about more things.
Like IHG floorball. I think I cannot hide from my sch sports sec anymore. He's creepy in so many ways sucks that I know him and I THINK he lives in my hall. wth?

I really need to TRY to tune back my body clock though. I think i've been living in a sleep from 11am-7pm timezone for the past week. I almost missed my appt at 8pm. wah piang new record. Literally living in darkness.

anyways. finally settled my party venue and theme. need to do abit of stuff to entertain my friends and all. so urhg to work again. I think Imma try to sleep and wake at 11 to go to school for floorball. get a hair cut. then attend joint hall meeting. and then return home hopefully tired so i can sleep early.

okay sounds good.

good morning everyone.

Sitting alone here in NUH is a bit creepy. Looking at how my grandma is unable to respond to any of my calling is even more upsetting. I remembered the times where she would sit me down and talk to me, these are the times i know that i haven been visiting her enough that is why she would sit me down and try to catch up with what she had lost.

Times just got worst when i started working in the kitchen. I totally lose all my time for my family. I can go up to 8months without visiting her. How could i you ask? Im also not so sure about the answer myself.

Looking at her now on the bed with all those tubes is already making me feel bad enough, it cannot make up for the time lost last time. Talking to her about myself now just doesnt seem like a right thing to do.

It was just 3weeks ago when i finally visited her after 8mths of playing missing games, and the reason being why i visited her is that my cousin have to personally put a status on Facebook to tell us that my grandma's health is going down hill.

last week when i went to the Rehab to visit her, she was still talking to me and asking me to bring my boyfriend to let her have a look, till now im still laughing at that convo. And the next thing i knew she had a heart attack and needs to be admitted to hospital right away. Just a mere few hours and the grandmother that i saw is like two different person.

Its hard to explain how i feel when i heard and saw what happened. It happened too fast for me to have a reaction.

Now, a week have passed and she is still lying on the bed.
Nobody knows how long this is gonna continue...

Im not hoping for the worst, but if the worst can bring her comfort, please just do it.

love you always ahma <3

So exams ended a week ago.
I've been. I think I could say enjoying myself.
Sleeping rather plenty although at weird timings.
There was training today. And I literally crawled out of bed to be on time. But was late anyway cause I went for breakfast.

Oh then there was the BBDC saga.

I'm soooo tired now thanks to training. Lunch was the team was. Nice. Long time since we had one.
And I have another 3 hours to concentrate later. I hope my brain works. Speaking of which thereafter I have to drive home. I hope I dont fall asleep. That would be bad. Had 2 experiences dozing off at the wheel otw home from ntu :x Don't try this peeps.

And shopping. I combed the entire vivo for things to buy, and NOTHING. GOSH. When I finally have the time and money to do so. Nothing to buy.

I feel like taking a nap now in hall.
Feels weird to be here when its awfully quiet with nobody around.
I have about 45min to rest. Tempting bed!

And oh, I'll be confirming my 21st party location by this week. The world's been asking me. Chill alright folks. Tmr is like amazing race recce. Go so many locations to negotiate and discuss. I feel so grown up-ish.

Alright. Just a random update. Take care and have fun during the hols! :)